conversations and dead insects

i killed a bug today. it was by accident. i was walking and stepped on it. i was watching the little creature walk along, thinking to myself, hey, you should be careful so as to not step on that little thing... and then i stepped on it because the velocity at which my foot was falling to the ground and the time it took for my brain to send the message to my foot were off... and a life was lost.

i also got to talk to a dear friend of mine, one i haven't talked to in quite some time,  over the phone. i kind of suck on the phone. but talking to aaron reminded me of the beauty of technology, and how grateful i am to be able to talk to my friends who are so far away.

if you're reading this, and we're friends, i apologise for my lack of communication. i suck over the phone, and often in person. i'm not very good at taking time to email people, or facebook them, or even do the skype thing.

i'm working on it, but let's be honest, i get lost in other worlds, and sometimes forget how to live in this one. (by this one, i mean the one outside of blog world and the one that my hands and feet and lungs are existing in, while this blog version of me is simply a franchised version of myself...)

on that note, i'm off to the world of dreams and sleep.

dreamer, where are you off to? 

i'm off to life! where else would i go.

nowhere, you would stay here with me and be content, exclaimed the muse.

i have to leave, but i'm sure we'll meet each other again, sometime soon.

over and out good buddy.

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things that happen;

i am awake and so unaware

fans blowing from computers, stovetops,

bathrooms, ceilings, 

& engines.

lights blinking from off, to on, then off, on, and then back to off again.

lights in houses, garages, grocery stores, hallways,

bedrooms, closets, caves, refrigerators, under lampshades,

over mirrors and garage doors

above the front door, back door, & side door of my house.

Christmas lights, hanging lanterns and all the other lights...

metal against metal:

buzzing, scraping, ringing, and resonating

on earrings, in the dishwasher, change in your pocket.

clinking chains on a bicycle as the tires rotate, 

bells in a clock tower, on a harp, guitar strings & bass strings,

cello & violin.

people clapping their hands

when they're excited

and gasping

out of anger.

snapping their fingers cracking their knuckles

biting

their nails

kneading dough, picking their noses, picking their pimples

feeling newspaper, rubbing their clothing.

stirring

wafting incense, smoking cigarettes, folding laundry.

brushing their hair, petting animals, petting people, 

petting themselves