Monday, April 7, 2008

23 february 2006...

This was written a long time ago, and recently, I've been made aware that I still need to hear it: (this has been edited for readability and to save me from any personal humiliation...)

i have a crush on a boy... he's a pretty great guy. BUT i am waiting... and he, i'm pretty sure is still very much in love with someone else.

Misty girl, pray that God will teach you to be patient while you're waiting. Pray that God will give you such great peace and that in that peace you'll be made aware of God's thoughts and words in all that you do. Be patient young one. You have so much life ahead of you. the Lord your God has got such wonderful plans. Don't forget, and don't be afraid to do whatever you are called to. Even if you think you might miss a chance to have something or someone you might not have the chance to see otherwise. God will take care of it all. Let the Lord guide you. follow and you'll live. Your desires have been put there by Jesus, wait in patience and believe that God will guide and direct your path. remember though, that you have to keep walking to figure out where it leads. sometimes there will be signs, but when there are not, keep walking. otherwise you won't get anywhere.
Acknowledge your nothingness and surrender your poverty before the Lord. You might fall, and you will definitely stumble, but acknowledge these parts of life, and find peace in getting up again. Surround yourself with friends, and there will always be hands to help you up, because you have been there and offered your hand too. Live in reciprocity. give without expecting to receive, but trust that what you need exists in community. Embrace that community and live in love.
God give you peace and love little one.
be good to yourself.

i met this guy that i used to know the other day. we hung out. i remembered why i liked him... i don't know what that means. i guess time will tell. until then, i will breathe deep and wait. it's been over 2 years. time and i are becoming friends, so maybe she'll start talking more.
we'll see.

until then, i'll try being good to myself.

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